Showing posts with label Russell. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Russell. Show all posts

What is spirit and what is ego?



Well that is the question, to be or not to be. Russell in Candle of Vision (p5-7) describes the ego as a mean and miserable boy, and I can't get the thought out of my mind:

Christos has nothing to do with Jesus



While sitting in a quiet moment I had a fearful experience. A feeling welled up inside and then without hearing any words I knew that "I am Christos". The hallucination was very clear, not Jesus but Christos. The experience was not simply a non-auditory, non-visual hallucination, for it came with deep feelings for which words cannot do justice, but sustaining, dynamic, and immensely intelligent love is the best I can conjure. However wonderful the feelings were, a little later I found my mind debating and deciding that this experience was upsetting and fearful. I identified with society's condemnation of crazies who preach about Jesus being within and I dreaded being turned into some type of wild-eyed preacher you encounter in main streets of cities promising eternal salvation.